Scared of... The Dark

Scared of The Dark

 In the beginning of the world was only darkness. It wasn’t meant as a bad, scary, or obscure entity; just that there is absence of light. Why is it that humans, and some animals, adapt to sleep more at night rather than day? It’s because of time; the twelve month calendar that sets all of our daily lives into a schedule. My mom likes to stay up later at night since she feels as though she has more energy and can accomplish more since everyone else is asleep. However, is that the reason she stays up?

When I was little my mom explained what Heaven and Hell were; places you go after you die, what most people would call the afterworld. With us being Christians, my mom explained that Satin was once an angle, a beautiful one too. He however, turned from God and took some angles with him into a place called Hell. My mom went on to say that Satin can take on all forms. When you are a little kid you don’t know what to make of that. I took it that satin can “become” anything. As I grew older, I learned more and more what Hell was: a dark scary place with fire. More frightening from that, you’re separated from God for eternity.

Darkness became a huge fear, the sensation of being surrounded by blackness. Objects seem to take on a different form and shape at night, that time seems unreal.  Movement of your door or a tree branch scratching your window with the moon so dim you can barely see it in the huge sky and murky clouds.  I remember thinking Satin or one of his followers was under my bed and would grab me, take me under with no escape. Take me into the unknown, the dark unknown. They would cover my mouth so I could not scream. I would try to run but my legs collapsed under me and I fall. I would walk over to my light switch; take a deep breath, knowing that the light would help me for now. As soon as I turn it off, I know everything was fair game, including myself. I turned out the light and ran as fast as my little legs could carry me. Run so that no one could grab me. I jumped on my bed and pull the overs over me in a flash, so no one could harm me. I would take a sigh of relief, knowing that I was safe, for now. I closed my eyes, and then fall asleep.